Codeword - Lucky

Hiie!! I'm back!! I watched Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows Part One already!! Very nice leh!!! Today alone at home, lonely, but happy. :) But also sad. Coz have to do finish my maths then can play. Anyways I finish doing liao. Yay! :) Wanna watch Coach Carter!! But can't. :( Shld I cook something to eat? No, just now eat liao. Hmm.. So bored.. And sleepy.. But dun wan slp leh.. Later got tuition, scared cannot wake up.. Play facebook till xian liao... Listen to song till xian liao also.. Nth to do leh! How?! How I wish can go out with Gennie, my godsister. She got her PSLE results liao, congrats to her, scored quite well. :) Kimberly also score very well!! Congrats!! :D My sis went to her student counsel BBQ!! Hey! I want go too!! But can't, too bad.. :( So bored luh!! Hm! Dun want write liao! No mood uhs!!

Feeling so frustrated!!

Wow....Never get scolding last night cuz my dad came back late and I was already asleep,but think tonight will get scolding... Got so much to say!! Not about exams, but about myself.. I hate to be bullied. But I do get bullied almost everyday.. Feeling so angry, thinking "why is my life like this?!". Just a few months ago I thought that my life is normal again, but I'm SO wrong. It's worst than ever. My sis is bullying me, I tell my mum but she doesn't seem to care. The most ridiculous thing is, we're fighting an i-phone. But there's no need to fight now. My grades are so bad, it's impossible that I'll be allowed to play or even touch it. And, some of my friends are like, totally not trustable. (ShiYing, not you.) Really dunno if I could trust them. So confused!! Feel like crying, but I can't.. My parents are like, like they dun care about me at all. They don't ask me how I feel, they dun even noe anything that's happening to me. It's like even if I'm dead, they won't care. All they care about is my sis. They need her and that's all. Yeah, I'm talkative, lots of nonsense. But I need to talk. To make me feel better. I feel so angry, so upset inside my heart. Feel like pouring everything out. Not to my parents. I dun feel like talking to them. It's just too difficult. If only they had realised everything when I was young, and talked to us more, it wouldn't be so difficult to speak to them right now. And my father's so strict. I'm scared of him. I dun want to talk to him. I dun noe when he's gonna burst. Sometimes he gets angry halfway through our conversations. It makes me not wanna talk to him. And he always scolds me like hell for my exam results. I dun understand the use of scolding. The exam is already over. It's past, not present. It's not like we could retake the same test. You think I dun wanna pass? I do. How I wish one day everything will change. Then my life would be perfect. But it's impossible. I know that.

Feel like dying...

I can't believe I failed my maths, again!! Feel like dying man!! I'm such a major loser!! I tried my best, you know. 8 more marks!! 8 more marks and i'll pass!! I only got 42 half, sigh.. How I wish I passed!! Haizz.. But life's like this, you fail, you have to try again. Kays, let's not talk about my maths. My english got top in class again!! 74 half / 95. Not bad, but i'm not happy with it. Science not very good either, 55 half. :( My dad's gonna kill me. And Chinese I got 81. Only thing i'm happy about. :( Gosh, my holidays are gonna be ruined!! :'(